Friday, November 28, 2008
Updates..
just here to do another regular update..haha..well..since i have not blogged in almost a week..think shall blog about the stuff tat are more significant over the week..Monday(24/11)
was suppose to pick up my mum and bro from the aiport at 0630...and i woke up at 0530 after slping onli like 4 hrs...when i opened my door..first thing i saw was my dad...he ask me "are u goin to the airport?" and i answered with another question.. " er..u goin ah?"..haha..it was quite awkward...then later he said.."u go back to slp lar..i go fetch mummy"..after tat i stood there for like 5 seconds..with the clothes i wanna change into in my hands...and then i said.."oh ok"..haha...so i din go airport lar..woke up so early for nothing...and the best thing is i could not go back to slp till 2 hrs later...and just as i was about to go back to slp...my bro just called saying.."eh..come downstairs help with the luggage"...and with my sleepy voice i replied.."huh...oh..ok.."..haha...
ok lar..they bought me some stuff..mainly a swatch watch and a t-shirt...
so yar..tats how the watch and t-shirt looks like..haha.. i like the shirt...super funny..if u can look at the bracketed wordings below..my bros got a watch also from swatch and wallets which are 100+ EUROS...if convert would be like more than S$200...not tat i am complaining lar..but i could really use a new wallet...
Tuesday/Wednesday(25/11 or 26/11)
although it just happened this week...could not rememer which day it was in particular..haha..my memory is failing me...met REBECCA..(see i spelt ur name correct..hurhur)..and GORDEN..(scared u later jealous i bold REBECCA's name and not urs..haha) for lunch...had pepper lunch..then went to starbucks to discuss on the night games for youth camp...JUN and ANGEL joined us also...haha..now i know how difficult a script writer's job is...how do they ever come out with so many different kinda story lines and different characters...i need like so many breaks just to figure out how to fill in the missing loopholes in the plot...plus haven planned the script for the different characters...super alot of work to do..which reminds me...WHERE DID U GO LAST NIGHT REBECCA...??...haha..she was suppose to meet me online last night to discuss the script which she obviously did not..i stayed up till 4am waiting ok..haha...no lar..i did stay up will 4 am...but playing games and watching videos...haha...its now 11 am in the morning and she still is no awake...this gal ah..haha...planning to finish it before the camp meeting which is TML...argh....
Thursday(27/11)
Not much happened today lar..just discussed details of the night game with REB...also sent an email to a recruitment agency...basically i am looking for my old job again..see whether they are still hiring ppl anot..also receive a letter frm NTU..think it will be the last letter i will be receiving..basically its the confirmation of withdrawl from course letter lar..finally this whole saga has ended...
Friday(28/11)
Well..there are a few things i planned for today...first is to watch golf on tele..hehe..think there's the lexus cup starting today...to be honest..i would not be suprised if i were to play golf in future..as in for leisure lar..haha..after tat if can..maybe try to meet up with REB again to discuss the script for the characters for night game...also wanna buy a birthday present for andrew...gonna celebrate andrew's bday tml..
Saturday(29/11)
Saturday is gonna be a super packed day...morning got youth camp meeting..afternoon got main service rehearsal...at night got andrew's birthday celebration...after tat got a class reunion with my sec 4 buddies...which i dunno whether i can attend..depend on how late andrew's celebration ends...
yup..so tats this week i guess..i will leave Sunday till my next entry..some ppl say a week is frm one Sun to Sat..others say its from Mon to Sun...dunno which is which lar..but now i am using the Sun to Sat system...but but...i forgot to say wad happened on Sunday..crap...aiya..wadever lar..
still waiting for Rebecca to wake up...she's like a piglet lar..haha...
kk..be back soon with another juicy addition..
Woke up today with a BIG pimple on my face...someone please call the biohazard dept..
Posted by shinkaro at 10:47 AM
Monday, November 24, 2008
to slp or not to slp..
contemplating whether to slp now or not..mum and bro gonna arrive back in sg in about 6 hrs time..kinda glad they are back..cannot wait to see what they got for me frm europe..my bro's got pretty good taste..so trust tat he's got something good for me..so how the question is..shd i slp a little while or try to hold out till 6 in the morning...cause i scared if i slp i will snooze when the alarm rings...then if i dun slp tml sure like zombie..so how how...haha..aiya..i think i shall take REBECCA's advice and get some rest...
Posted by shinkaro at 12:14 AM
Friday, November 14, 2008
accomplisments...
i have accomplished more in these last 2 days...compared to the last two months...no joke...haha..lets see...the last 2 months...i have been er..slacking...watching episodes of heroes and smallville..working on my portfolio...doin research on my future studies...yar..about liddat lar..it may seem alot but when spread out over 2 mths...doesnt say much about how i used my time...but today and yesterday were break through days..i shall outline them point by point..haha
1)completed my third portfolio pieces..
now i know it doesn't sound like much...but it takes me about half a day to finish one sketch...plus normally i dun spent the entire half a day fixed on getting the sketch done...halfway i would take a break...walk around..cause the c
oncentration needed to get one of these done is seriously alot..and i dun wanna like fry my brain so i take frequent breaks...alot of frequent breaks..
so yup..these are the three sketches.. it may not look very well done but hey i dun have any background drawing experience unlike those design students...so for me i think its quite ok lar...its part of my uni sem 1 project..do let me know wad u guys think ya...
2)Uploaded many pictures
i know the heading doesn't sound like much..but i found some super old sch photos...accidentally found it when i was looking thru some of my stuff i kept away...uploaded up to my facebook...including some frm my army bmt days...sure brings back memories...those were the days where i was still at my prime...haha..made quite a few changes also to my photos layout in facebook...made a lot of tags as well...some good...cause they bring back memories...some bad...well..cause they were not really good looking then..haha..not i say..those ppl's photos whom i have uploaded complained to me and ask me to remove...which i refused of course...
3)Started planning for youth camp...
yup...i joined the youth camp games sub com as i had plenty of time on my hands...they had kinda like the layout already..so i just had to contribute to sort of mould them into the correct shape..haha..been telling myself to do so for the past 3 days...only till today did i start...already have 2 games in mind...games tat we are quite familiar but with a twist to make it more fun...of course have to get approval first before can implement..but i think shd be fine..
so yup..basically accomplised these 3 important things lar...quite proud of myself at the moment..oh ya..and my mum and bro just left for europe...so here i am...all alone...haha..well not really all alone lar...got my younger bro and father..really wanna go sia...well..maybe next year lar..negotiations are underway..haha...
Posted by shinkaro at 12:33 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
the irony..
haven been using the word "irony" for a very long time..think the last time i used it was back in sec sch..when i was studying literature...but tats the word tat summed up my day...met up with a fren a few days ago...had a good chat..talked about a few issues which let me have the kind of thinking like.."wth would someone do something liddat"...at tat time..i felt the persons reactions were stupid...not reason at all...maybe i did not factor in the situation...like wad i faced today...with the whole situation in place it was so much clearer...just din think tat i would come to a situation like this...
i always think very highly of myself...not tat i am very proud or whatever but i set very high standards for myself..and severals events which happened these past few months plus today..got me thinking about my standards..the standards i set for myself...i am not bugged by wad i did today..but by the fact tat i may not be the standard tat i set myself to be...
Posted by shinkaro at 1:17 AM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
super sianz...
currently waiting for the Manchester United Match Vs Celtic Champions League match to start..(Which i am sure Man U will win...) and also for my dvd to burn finish...nothing to do so decided to blog..for those who survived my previous long entry...good for u..hope tat it gave u some insight to wad i am goin thru right now...just to add to tat entry...decided to do relief teaching when the new year starts..(cause now is holiday and obviously cannot do any teaching..) tat will be my so called part time job lar..just to earn some money...as well as to gain experience...oh yar...i told some ppl this but if u dunno...I WANNA BE THE NEXT LEE KIM SENG..MUAHAHAHAHA...now if u dunno who tat is...its just a teacher who was a terror during my time in sch...now he's still in education..but is a councillor and heard he has toned down alot...well...I SHALL BE HIS SUCCESSOR..MUAHAHAHAHA....so yar..tats my plan...also will squeeze in driving lessons lar..
well...have been at home for most of this week...(other than going to submit my withdrawal form and print my jersey...)mainly trying to edit a video for my mum...it was her South Africa Trip last year...and where was i last year...IN THE ARMY...!! so i had to do a video with me having no part in it...i had no motivation to do it at first but once she involved $$ i happily said yes...(i know some of u would be reacting to the whole $$ thingy...but i am seriously broke ok...) i had seriously no idea wad was installed for me...the video..consisted of 300+ video clips...u must be wondering how come so many...well...imagine a person...clicking the play and stop button throughout the whole trip to record her video..yup..tats how the 300 came about..plus it was in a format i was not familiar with..some high definition thingy...somehow i managed to find a video converter to convert all the videos...then it was basically using the programs in my Mac..(iMovie and iDVD) to create a movie for the trip...which i finish today and am burning it into a DVD as of this moment...
din expect it to be so much fun actually..its the first time i used both programs and they are so easy to use...even if u dunno how to use them there are online video tutorials to teach you..how can u go wrong..haha..(ok now i am like advertising for Apple...)it made me think for a moment...maybe i could use this newly found skill of mine to good use...not in terms of making $$ lar..cause i am not tat pro yet...maybe in the form of helping church or the youth in their video needs...cool right...not sure if the youth have already a person for tat kinda job...think they do though...anyway if u guys need someone to help in ur videos can always approach me..well..of course there must be something tat must be of benefit for me lar..er..u guys try to be creative lar..haha..
ok...think i shall stop here... the DVD is almost done..and i shall watch an episode of smallville before the match starts...
GLORY GORY MAN UNITED...!!!!!
Posted by shinkaro at 2:30 AM
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
finally..its all over...
finally i have done something tat i have been troubled with for a few weeks..finally i have submitted my withdrawal form...i dunno why i feel troubled over it..maybe its because i am scared about the future..about not having any assurance of getting my second chance...its been bugging me for weeks now...even now its bugging me..but guess tat feeling is gonna die down within the next few weeks...while i start doing my own stuff....like editing my mum's overseas video...apply to driving sch to learn my driving...(finally)...ok for those who dunno...(which would be a big group of ur)...tot of applying for product design at NTU or NIE to become a teacher...i know..some of u ar like goin..."huh..sure anot...u teacher.." yes yes i know...i have been pondering over the month of october about wad God has planned for my life..wad does he wan me to be...wad does he wan to use me for..i talked to several ppl about it...well maybe not several...just 2...mainly Karen and Gillian...one is a teacher while the other is studying to become a teacher...(so u know why i ask those 2)...i asked them why they chose teaching..was it a calling..??How did they know God call them to become teachers...i always thought to hear God u gotta sit in on corner..have total silence...and just listen...tats wad i did..i tried to listen wad God had to say about wad he wans to do with my life..of course..i dun get anything...but wad Karen shared with me really opened my eyes about God's plan not only for me but for everyone..
its not necessary that u must sit in one corner and meditate to get the answer...it could simply come down to "how we ar wired"...how God has created us...our character...our personality...wad we ar really passionate about...well..in short to just follow our hearts...
yes yes...i studied engineering in poly largely due to aerospace..i was interested in everything tat flies basically...but wad i came to realize was tat wad i am interested in may not be wad i am passionate about..i just did not see myself being an engineer...(despite many ppl saying i got the engineer look)..but why teaching...??then i looked at my strengths and weaknesses...i am a good listener...i am slow to talk and always speak at the right moment..i am a thinker..but my social skills a little poor lar...meaning i dun talk much...if u were to put all the strengths and weaknesses together...i think it describes someone who is just there to hear things out...give advice when necessary..someone who is just there to help...and wad way than through teaching...i am an "actionman" meaning someone who rather demonstrate it than do it just to get his point across...all the strengths and weaknesses tat i just mentioned ar not frm me...its wad i have heard frm my frens..their comments and advice..bottom line is i have a strong feeling about it...
well..the other way would be product design...i am a thinker...when asked to come up with a product others would have come up with one and toking bout how it would work and everything when i would be thinking another 3 steps ahead..when they ask me for my advice i would normally keep quiet..cause i dun wanna spoil everything by saying it wun work...and i think i got wad it takes...its one thing to be able to draw ur ideas out but its another thing to come up with those ideas in the first place...and tats wad i think i have...just tat i dun have the background drawing skills tat design students may have...but tat can be strengthened cause the first year is all foundation..they teach u frm scratch..so it suits me...
so now i have teaching and product design...both ar probable second chances...my mind is telling me to do product design...my heart is telling me to go with teaching...tats one of my problems now...the other problem is...wad if i dun get both...wad if i failed to get either one of my choices...i have been asked tat question by a few ppl...and my answer is always blank...i cannot reply them...i dun have a contingency plan...
we all probably heard of this phrase all the time..."to have faith and trust in him...and he will lay the path for u..." i really wanna believe tat...not tat i totally dun...i believe tat wad i am goin through now its all part of his plan...but placing my future in his hands...tats another step..another leap of faith tat i have to take....i used to think my faith in him wads strong...but now..i dunno where i am anymore...