Monday, October 22, 2007
saddening..
still at home wating for it to be round close to 11 before i leave home for work..dun have to book in yesterdae since my recruits have a visit at sdc this morning and i dun have to bring them..but time flies so fast and the xtra time i have seems as though it wasnt there at all..
since i had so much time yesterdae..my dad decided to bring my bro and me to visit my grandma who is in a nursing home somewhere in braddell...remember seeing her just a few months ago in hospital..now she is in a home suffering from demansia..(dunno how to spell)..on the way there..was thinking whether she wld remember me..she dot on me alot..giving me the best outta all the little she had..my dad told me she had forgotten alot of things..things can happen todae and she wld forget them tml..but she wld remember things tat happen long ago..so being the oldest amongst her grandsons..i was hoping she wld remember me..
upon reaching there..i gave the building a stare..it was kinda run down..the rooms were cramp and there was practically no wind at all..the mood there was realli very saddening..enough to immediately change one's good mood..then i saw my grandma..she was slping..i took a good look at her and could tell immediately she had lost weight...her face was smaller than usual..then she woke up and saw me and my bro..she immediately smiled at us..her smile was like light shining through a pitch dark room..i still remember the smile on her face up till now..then she turned to look at me..at tat moment through the look frm her eyes..i knew she had a small rememberence of who i was...throughout the whole time we were there..she did not say a word...but she looked at me alot...seems she wanna say something to me but just could not..remembered in the past where she would have a lot of words for me..telling me to study hard..that my parents sacrifice alot for me..although i did not realli know how to reply here in cantonese..i would understand and reply accordingly..holding up my tears each time she gave me words of wisdom..now she just lay silent on her bed..
we stayed for just a little while,,not wanting to disturb her rest...upon leaving i look at the building once again..not knowing when i will see her again..on the way home i thought to myself...will i be like her in the next 50 years...where will i be then..will i be able to remember all the friendship i have forged past and persent...sometimes on the way to work..i wld just think to myself...whether i wld rest the place peacefully and in one piece...or wld i be knocked over by a car while crossing the road...i just cannot help but think of all these things..after wad happened to andrew of wad happened to my fren's frens..whether one day it will realli happen to me..if it realli happens wad wld ppl's reaction be..
i remember in the past i asked andrew one question..if i were to die..wld ppl remember me..wld i be missed...he scolded me in a joking manner..told me i wld be missed dearly and wld be remembered..now something has happened to him..i still remember his character and personality..the countless times he has come up to me and talked to me...cracking jokes and making me laugh..tats the thing i miss most about him..just miss the way he is..
get well soon andrew..we're all waiting for tat day when u r yourself again..
Posted by shinkaro at 9:24 AM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
back finally..
finally back from a long week of work..actualli not realli long lar...this week passed rather quickly..maybe because of the live firing we had for 2 days..the live firing was tiring though..leaving company line earli and returing late..not enough slp for those 2 days...but overall was ok lar..
was like planning wad to do for this weekend on the way back..this weekend not too bad lar..got dinner with grace and gang tml night..then church on sunday..the other times are for me to play my online game and chill out..but other programs are welcomed as well lar..(just feel free to sms me..haha)
next week...dun have to book in on sunday...haha..cause my recruits have a visit to sdc..so book in on monday afternoon instead..shiok...can wake up late tat morning alreadi..
well.think i gonna rest for the night..tired alreadi..
Posted by shinkaro at 12:39 AM
Saturday, October 13, 2007
boring..
gloomy day..has been raining on and off..liddat also quite good lar..cool whether..nicer to slp..haha..but not gonna waste my time slping on my weekend..can alwaes slp in camp..oops...leaked my secret out..haha..not realli slp lar..for me quite busy cause i got a very impt secondary appointment as u all know..so have to keep on doin work...even if slp also a while onli..i wun even call it slp lar..just rest..
rite now playing an online game which my pc introed to me...a game called nine dragons..basically go round the map killing monsters and lvling up to learn more kung fu and fight more dangerous monster..(is this boring u)..haha..actualli i also dunno why i doin this entry..outta boredom i guess..todae realli nothing much to do..was hoping to watch the soccer matches tonite though..but i no scv..then the program which i used to watch matches online also gone liao..so just have to go out and watch..went to cosy bay after andrews birthday to watch..quite a good place lar..beside the kallang river..big screen and good atmosphere also..a good place to chill..(hint hint: anyone wanna go tonight..haha)
think the onli program now is tml..grace birthday..gotta go there earli help her set up stuff..hope i get paid for helping..(grace are u reading this..haha) yup..but wun be at her birthday party for long lar..still gotta book in tml night..then its gonna be another start to another long week..
Posted by shinkaro at 2:40 PM
Monday, October 8, 2007
about myself..
came across this at elva's blog and decided to give it a go..quite accurate lar i must say..if u wanna try it out youself..click on e link at the end of the post..
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Get to know yourself bet
Posted by shinkaro at 5:06 PM
Sunday, October 7, 2007
part time frens..
had this feeling for a long time..the feeling tat i dun belong to any group of frens..feeling left out whenever they plan activities..whenever they go out.. i would be the last on their list..the last to noe..or even nvr at all..why is this so..feeling so left out..
Posted by shinkaro at 1:58 PM