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Updates..

2008-11-28T10:47:00.004+08:00

just here to do another regular update..haha..well..since i have not blogged in almost a week..think shall blog about the stuff tat are more significant over the week..

Monday(24/11)

was suppose to pick up my mum and bro from the aiport at 0630...and i woke up at 0530 after slping onli like 4 hrs...when i opened my door..first thing i saw was my dad...he ask me "are u goin to the airport?" and i answered with another question.. " er..u goin ah?"..haha..it was quite awkward...then later he said.."u go back to slp lar..i go fetch mummy"..after tat i stood there for like 5 seconds..with the clothes i wanna change into in my hands...and then i said.."oh ok"..haha...so i din go airport lar..woke up so early for nothing...and the best thing is i could not go back to slp till 2 hrs later...and just as i was about to go back to slp...my bro just called saying.."eh..come downstairs help with the luggage"...and with my sleepy voice i replied.."huh...oh..ok.."..haha...

ok lar..they bought me some stuff..mainly a swatch watch and a t-shirt...

so yar..tats how the watch and t-shirt looks like..haha.. i like the shirt...super funny..if u can look at the bracketed wordings below..my bros got a watch also from swatch and wallets which are 100+ EUROS...if convert would be like more than S$200...not tat i am complaining lar..but i could really use a new wallet...

Tuesday/Wednesday(25/11 or 26/11)

although it just happened this week...could not rememer which day it was in particular..haha..my memory is failing me...met REBECCA..(see i spelt ur name correct..hurhur)..and GORDEN..(scared u later jealous i bold REBECCA's name and not urs..haha) for lunch...had pepper lunch..then went to starbucks to discuss on the night games for youth camp...JUN and ANGEL joined us also...haha..now i know how difficult a script writer's job is...how do they ever come out with so many different kinda story lines and different characters...i need like so many breaks just to figure out how to fill in the missing loopholes in the plot...plus haven planned the script for the different characters...super alot of work to do..which reminds me...WHERE DID U GO LAST NIGHT REBECCA...??...haha..she was suppose to meet me online last night to discuss the script which she obviously did not..i stayed up till 4am waiting ok..haha...no lar..i did stay up will 4 am...but playing games and watching videos...haha...its now 11 am in the morning and she still is no awake...this gal ah..haha...planning to finish it before the camp meeting which is TML...argh....

Thursday(27/11)

Not much happened today lar..just discussed details of the night game with REB...also sent an email to a recruitment agency...basically i am looking for my old job again..see whether they are still hiring ppl anot..also receive a letter frm NTU..think it will be the last letter i will be receiving..basically its the confirmation of withdrawl from course letter lar..finally this whole saga has ended...

Friday(28/11)

Well..there are a few things i planned for today...first is to watch golf on tele..hehe..think there's the lexus cup starting today...to be honest..i would not be suprised if i were to play golf in future..as in for leisure lar..haha..after tat if can..maybe try to meet up with REB again to discuss the script for the characters for night game...also wanna buy a birthday present for andrew...gonna celebrate andrew's bday tml..

Saturday(29/11)

Saturday is gonna be a super packed day...morning got youth camp meeting..afternoon got main service rehearsal...at night got andrew's birthday celebration...after tat got a class reunion with my sec 4 buddies...which i dunno whether i can attend..depend on how late andrew's celebration ends...

yup..so tats this week i guess..i will leave Sunday till my next entry..some ppl say a week is frm one Sun to Sat..others say its from Mon to Sun...dunno which is which lar..but now i am using the Sun to Sat system...but but...i forgot to say wad happened on Sunday..crap...aiya..wadever lar..

still waiting for Rebecca to wake up...she's like a piglet lar..haha...

kk..be back soon with another juicy addition..

Woke up today with a BIG pimple on my face...someone please call the biohazard dept..

to slp or not to slp..

2008-11-24T00:14:00.004+08:00

contemplating whether to slp now or not..mum and bro gonna arrive back in sg in about 6 hrs time..kinda glad they are back..cannot wait to see what they got for me frm europe..my bro's got pretty good taste..so trust tat he's got something good for me..

so how the question is..shd i slp a little while or try to hold out till 6 in the morning...cause i scared if i slp i will snooze when the alarm rings...then if i dun slp tml sure like zombie..so how how...haha..aiya..i think i shall take REBECCA's advice and get some rest...

accomplisments...

2008-11-14T00:33:00.005+08:00

i have accomplished more in these last 2 days...compared to the last two months...no joke...haha..lets see...the last 2 months...i have been er..slacking...watching episodes of heroes and smallville..working on my portfolio...doin research on my future studies...yar..about liddat lar..it may seem alot but when spread out over 2 mths...doesnt say much about how i used my time...

but today and yesterday were break through days..i shall outline them point by point..haha

1)completed my third portfolio pieces..

now i know it doesn't sound like much...but it takes me about half a day to finish one sketch...plus normally i dun spent the entire half a day fixed on getting the sketch done...halfway i would take a break...walk around..cause the c

oncentration needed to get one of these done is seriously alot..and i dun wanna like fry my brain so i take frequent breaks...alot of frequent breaks..

so yup..these are the three sketches.. it may not look very well done but hey i dun have any background drawing experience unlike those design students...so for me i think its quite ok lar...its part of my uni sem 1 project..do let me know wad u guys think ya...

2)Uploaded many pictures

i know the heading doesn't sound like much..but i found some super old sch photos...accidentally found it when i was looking thru some of my stuff i kept away...uploaded up to my facebook...including some frm my army bmt days...sure brings back memories...those were the days where i was still at my prime...haha..made quite a few changes also to my photos layout in facebook...made a lot of tags as well...some good...cause they bring back memories...some bad...well..cause they were not really good looking then..haha..not i say..those ppl's photos whom i have uploaded complained to me and ask me to remove...which i refused of course...

3)Started planning for youth camp...

yup...i joined the youth camp games sub com as i had plenty of time on my hands...they had kinda like the layout already..so i just had to contribute to sort of mould them into the correct shape..haha..been telling myself to do so for the past 3 days...only till today did i start...already have 2 games in mind...games tat we are quite familiar but with a twist to make it more fun...of course have to get approval first before can implement..but i think shd be fine..

so yup..basically accomplised these 3 important things lar...quite proud of myself at the moment..oh ya..and my mum and bro just left for europe...so here i am...all alone...haha..well not really all alone lar...got my younger bro and father..really wanna go sia...well..maybe next year lar..negotiations are underway..haha...

the irony..

2008-11-12T01:17:00.002+08:00

haven been using the word "irony" for a very long time..think the last time i used it was back in sec sch..when i was studying literature...but tats the word tat summed up my day...

met up with a fren a few days ago...had a good chat..talked about a few issues which let me have the kind of thinking like.."wth would someone do something liddat"...at tat time..i felt the persons reactions were stupid...not reason at all...maybe i did not factor in the situation...like wad i faced today...with the whole situation in place it was so much clearer...just din think tat i would come to a situation like this...

i always think very highly of myself...not tat i am very proud or whatever but i set very high standards for myself..and severals events which happened these past few months plus today..got me thinking about my standards..the standards i set for myself...i am not bugged by wad i did today..but by the fact tat i may not be the standard tat i set myself to be...

super sianz...

2008-11-06T02:30:00.002+08:00

currently waiting for the Manchester United Match Vs Celtic Champions League match to start..(Which i am sure Man U will win...) and also for my dvd to burn finish...nothing to do so decided to blog..

for those who survived my previous long entry...good for u..hope tat it gave u some insight to wad i am goin thru right now...just to add to tat entry...decided to do relief teaching when the new year starts..(cause now is holiday and obviously cannot do any teaching..) tat will be my so called part time job lar..just to earn some money...as well as to gain experience...oh yar...i told some ppl this but if u dunno...I WANNA BE THE NEXT LEE KIM SENG..MUAHAHAHAHA...now if u dunno who tat is...its just a teacher who was a terror during my time in sch...now he's still in education..but is a councillor and heard he has toned down alot...well...I SHALL BE HIS SUCCESSOR..MUAHAHAHAHA....so yar..tats my plan...also will squeeze in driving lessons lar..

well...have been at home for most of this week...(other than going to submit my withdrawal form and print my jersey...)mainly trying to edit a video for my mum...it was her South Africa Trip last year...and where was i last year...IN THE ARMY...!! so i had to do a video with me having no part in it...i had no motivation to do it at first but once she involved $$ i happily said yes...(i know some of u would be reacting to the whole $$ thingy...but i am seriously broke ok...) i had seriously no idea wad was installed for me...the video..consisted of 300+ video clips...u must be wondering how come so many...well...imagine a person...clicking the play and stop button throughout the whole trip to record her video..yup..tats how the 300 came about..plus it was in a format i was not familiar with..some high definition thingy...somehow i managed to find a video converter to convert all the videos...then it was basically using the programs in my Mac..(iMovie and iDVD) to create a movie for the trip...which i finish today and am burning it into a DVD as of this moment...

din expect it to be so much fun actually..its the first time i used both programs and they are so easy to use...even if u dunno how to use them there are online video tutorials to teach you..how can u go wrong..haha..(ok now i am like advertising for Apple...)it made me think for a moment...maybe i could use this newly found skill of mine to good use...not in terms of making $$ lar..cause i am not tat pro yet...maybe in the form of helping church or the youth in their video needs...cool right...not sure if the youth have already a person for tat kinda job...think they do though...anyway if u guys need someone to help in ur videos can always approach me..well..of course there must be something tat must be of benefit for me lar..er..u guys try to be creative lar..haha..

ok...think i shall stop here... the DVD is almost done..and i shall watch an episode of smallville before the match starts...

GLORY GORY MAN UNITED...!!!!!

finally..its all over...

2008-11-04T00:09:00.003+08:00

finally i have done something tat i have been troubled with for a few weeks..finally i have submitted my withdrawal form...i dunno why i feel troubled over it..maybe its because i am scared about the future..about not having any assurance of getting my second chance...its been bugging me for weeks now...even now its bugging me..but guess tat feeling is gonna die down within the next few weeks...while i start doing my own stuff....like editing my mum's overseas video...apply to driving sch to learn my driving...(finally)...

ok for those who dunno...(which would be a big group of ur)...tot of applying for product design at NTU or NIE to become a teacher...i know..some of u ar like goin..."huh..sure anot...u teacher.." yes yes i know...i have been pondering over the month of october about wad God has planned for my life..wad does he wan me to be...wad does he wan to use me for..i talked to several ppl about it...well maybe not several...just 2...mainly Karen and Gillian...one is a teacher while the other is studying to become a teacher...(so u know why i ask those 2)...i asked them why they chose teaching..was it a calling..??How did they know God call them to become teachers...i always thought to hear God u gotta sit in on corner..have total silence...and just listen...tats wad i did..i tried to listen wad God had to say about wad he wans to do with my life..of course..i dun get anything...but wad Karen shared with me really opened my eyes about God's plan not only for me but for everyone..

its not necessary that u must sit in one corner and meditate to get the answer...it could simply come down to "how we ar wired"...how God has created us...our character...our personality...wad we ar really passionate about...well..in short to just follow our hearts...

yes yes...i studied engineering in poly largely due to aerospace..i was interested in everything tat flies basically...but wad i came to realize was tat wad i am interested in may not be wad i am passionate about..i just did not see myself being an engineer...(despite many ppl saying i got the engineer look)..but why teaching...??then i looked at my strengths and weaknesses...i am a good listener...i am slow to talk and always speak at the right moment..i am a thinker..but my social skills a little poor lar...meaning i dun talk much...if u were to put all the strengths and weaknesses together...i think it describes someone who is just there to hear things out...give advice when necessary..someone who is just there to help...and wad way than through teaching...i am an "actionman" meaning someone who rather demonstrate it than do it just to get his point across...all the strengths and weaknesses tat i just mentioned ar not frm me...its wad i have heard frm my frens..their comments and advice..bottom line is i have a strong feeling about it...

well..the other way would be product design...i am a thinker...when asked to come up with a product others would have come up with one and toking bout how it would work and everything when i would be thinking another 3 steps ahead..when they ask me for my advice i would normally keep quiet..cause i dun wanna spoil everything by saying it wun work...and i think i got wad it takes...its one thing to be able to draw ur ideas out but its another thing to come up with those ideas in the first place...and tats wad i think i have...just tat i dun have the background drawing skills tat design students may have...but tat can be strengthened cause the first year is all foundation..they teach u frm scratch..so it suits me...

so now i have teaching and product design...both ar probable second chances...my mind is telling me to do product design...my heart is telling me to go with teaching...tats one of my problems now...the other problem is...wad if i dun get both...wad if i failed to get either one of my choices...i have been asked tat question by a few ppl...and my answer is always blank...i cannot reply them...i dun have a contingency plan...

we all probably heard of this phrase all the time..."to have faith and trust in him...and he will lay the path for u..." i really wanna believe tat...not tat i totally dun...i believe tat wad i am goin through now its all part of his plan...but placing my future in his hands...tats another step..another leap of faith tat i have to take....i used to think my faith in him wads strong...but now..i dunno where i am anymore...

sad and burdened times...

2008-10-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

it seems tat when one is sad...surrounding frens will be sad as well...either with individual problems and frustrations or problems that are connected to one another...saddness fills the air now..so many ppl goin through difficult times..feel so helpless as i cannot physically be there to help them with their problems...all i can do is give them words of encourage...

i always have this feeling tat God put me to be a listener...to be a listening ear to others...for i have a slow to speak kinda nature..i listen sometimes giving advice or just saying wad i think..sometimes just not saying anything at all..sometimes tats all ppl need...a listening ear...not words of advice...not someone to tell u wad is rite or wrong...just someone to listen...

sharing problems with one another releases the tension in the heart...i share mine through my blog..cause i dun like ppl to prob when i am feeling down...

sad times are meant to help one another..just like in the army...to get up together with support...is better than stuggling to get up alone..

why...?? what..??

2008-10-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

alot of whys and whats have been goin through my head the past few days...having constant dizziness and headaches due to this..most of u know tat i am a thinker...watever decisions i make i think 3 steps ahead..when i think hard..well..there are side effects..tats why i always standby a packet of panadol wherever i go..

i respect my father alot..belief tat i have told some of ur tat...tats the reason why i did not send my withdrawal form todae..it was upon his request..but wad pissed me off was that my mum called another party thus letting them know of my situation without prior telling me...everything i did i would tell them before hand first..i believe they shd do the same thing..i wanted my current situation to stay within the family...i wanted to solve it within the family and now this..

problems just keep growing...

just wish it would all go away..no problems..no saddness..no anger..no frustrations..nothing...just peace and stillness and quietness and emptyness...

dead end..

2008-10-12T17:50:00.002+08:00

did not study the whole of this week end..not because i did dun wan to..but because i was busy doin research..searching for ways and means to get out of my current situation..all search routes led me to the same conclusion..that i had no where else to go but to stay in my current course of study..

i wanted to do something related to design..but to do this one must have a portfolio..a collection of ur personnel work..be it freelance or frm previous institutions..this i had none..i ask my fren who was in design in poly about my chances of making it into design in uni...even when i knew the answer to the question frm the start i still asked...hoping for a different answer..the answer was the same..tat it would be very difficult..unless the portfolio was very strong..with one who has no background drawing experience whatsoever...tat chance of having a strong portfolio was close to nothing..

my chances of changing course was reduced to non...i then stood around my empty house thinking about other solutions but came out with none..there was always one choice no matter wad..to stay on and continue with my course of study..but the thought of tat dreadful saturday physics test kept appearing in my mind..haunting me..

but i tot to myself..i am now in e design stream of mechanical engineering..if i give up my place now..i would have nothing at all..not even a design element to it..so i came to a hard decision to stay on with my course of study...thinking about the things i need to catch up..i dunno where to start...

dun get me wrong..i am not staying on with my course of study just because i want to...but because i dun have a choice..wads in front of me is onli one path alone..a rocky and uphill path that i have to walk...alone...

wad a bad day..

2008-10-11T23:09:00.004+08:00

first and foremost i wanna thank those who have encouraged me these fews urging me to continue with my studies and do my best..i understand ur intentions and cannot ask anymore of u guys..

had my "last min" physics test today..went in..saw the questions..and had a mental block..the first time i had a mental block ever in my entire life during exam...things onli started flowing in my mind at the 30 min mark..by then it was all too late..i onli had 20 mins to finish 3 qns..(not mcq but short answer question)..ppl started leavning the venue after the paper but i just sat there..wondering what just happened.. i was thinking to myself..wad went wrong..the test was not really difficult but i just could not write anything..

this does not help me in any way..(my thinking of trying to wait and see my semester results)..it does not help in any way at all..it just buries me deeper and deeper...i tired telling ppl...screaming for help..wad they tell me is just to wait it out..try the best tat i can..and see the sem results..(not tat i am blaming them..but in a way..it does not help me at all)..i try to put those words of advice into action..but the harder the try..the deeper i sink...

after the test..went to orchard to look for a place..sit down..went online..and looked for other courses at NTU...not tat i did not try to continue..i tired..i really did..but as i said..the harder i tried the deeper i sink...i have come to a point that i dunno what to do anymore..i found something i like..but have to do more research on it first before i confirm anything..

u must be thinking...why did i choose something which right now i seem not to like..i chose mechatronics eng in poly just because of the choice of streaming to aerospace in the 3rd year..mainly because i was interested in planes and also designing..i wanted to do something related to planes and design..but i did nt factor in the mathematics tat comes with it..somehow i survived...

i chose mechanical eng in uni..because of the background knowledge frm poly..also because i could not get into aerospace and this was my second choice( not the choice i wanted but at tat time when i was choosing..i was narrow minded and only thought of eng..did not think whether i really liked wad i studied in the past)...tat mistake..led me to where i am now..but wads done is done and i cannot undo it..whats stopping me frm dropping my course is now just my parents..if not i wld have dropped a long time ago..

but this may not be true for long..i may one day..just snap again..when tat day comes it will be the end..no matter wad my parents say...will not help anymore..so i am now hanging by a thin thread...when tat thread snaps..the end...

update..

2008-10-06T12:35:00.002+08:00

know that i haven been updating..ever since i started studying..life has been somewhat upside down...realli tougher than wad i had expected..almost every week i tot of quitting school at least once..there was one time i really broke down and told my parents i wanted to quit sch...

they told me continue studying till the sem exams and see how i do..told me to continue putting in my very best to study like what i have been doin now..but theres a feeling inside me..that tells me they dun see one point...that no matter how hard i study...how much effort..there will always be a breaking point...there is only so much the body can take..just like a rubber band..u stretch it too much..the band will snap..and tats wad happened to me...i snapped...for the very first time in my life i snapped...

frm the start of sch i have studied everyday as if it was the exam period..intensive studying...but when i tok to my parents they dun see tat point..they only see that its too early to give up...but tats not really the point..

its onli bout a month till the exams..i see myself and the distance i have to run to get close to where i suppose to be..and its far..very far...to be able to catch up...its not impossible..i think i can..but it comes down to how much my body can take again...if i continue like tat..i will snap again...everyday i wake up its a reflection of how close i am to the exams...everyday i wake up..i know i have to like run a marathon before i can eventually rest at night..

so everyday i onli look forward to the night...where my brain can rest and my body relax...tats what keeps me goin everyday...

struggling with uni life...

2008-08-17T21:59:00.002+08:00

finally back for another update..ever since sch started just didn't have the time and energy to update...i must say this is one of the most challenging times of my life so far..uni is more tiring than i expected..and the fact tat i stay in the east just makes it ever worst..

the pace in uni is super fast..totally diff frm poly in the past..if u dun study for just one day..u wld suffer..so everyday i would have to study..the fact tat i have sch everyday till like 1630 by the time reach home bout 6 plus 7...feeling drained and tired frm sch and the train ride just makes it worst..sometimes i wld go home and take a nap first..but end up waking at 1 in the morning just frm the exhaustion..

i am the type tat will panic if i dun understand something..and right now..i am close to freaking out..i cannot answer most of the questions in the tutorials and tats not a good sign...

haiz...just toking about it makes me feel stress and pressurized... i have nvr been so hardworking before not even in my poly life..really dunno how much my body can hold on...

first week of school...

2008-08-09T02:01:00.002+08:00

before i talk about my first of sch in NTU..did i talk about my ORD day..?? dun remember talking about it..anyway..ya..ORD already..the day where all NSF are waiting for..well mine has come and gone..but the excitement i was expecting well..was not there at all..it was just like another day..tats why my msn nick tat day was..."just another ORDinary day.."well...maybe its cause of sch starting the following day...

well...sch has started for a week already..lucky first week no tutorial..so can slowly get used to waiting up early..getting used to the super long train rides to sch..getting used to finding the correct lecture theatres..(i was so lost on my first day..cannot blame me also lar..wanna find out more msn me..haha)..slowly getting back to the student life..

had to skip e first 2 days of sch cause haven ORD yet..so had to skip the first few lectures and a lab...at first i tot it was ok..just the first lesson nothing much..but then the lab was super impt..miss one session and u had to wait till the next semester..tat was wad the lecturer emailed me..i was shocked when i saw the mail..luckily we made arrangements for a makeup session and everything was back to normal..really cannot imagine me "repeating the module" and adding on to my already busy schedule..

so fat the lectures have been ok..some were very fast but with studying at home at ur own pace its ok..so far things have been better than expected lar..well..when the tutorials come in next week it will be a whole different ball game i guess..

well..shall post till here..i needa get my bio clock fix..i am turning into an owl now...haha

SGF..TOSW...

2008-08-03T23:57:00.018+08:00

so many things took place this weekend..as u can see frm the title of the blog are abbreviations of events tat i have attended just this weekend..well..will try to adopt the elva's way of updating a blog..like when u haven update in like a week..u will first state the date followed by e events tat took place...followed by the next date and so on..

1/8

ok..SGF stands for Singapore Garden Festival..where many flowers as well as garden concepts tat are on showcase..well...i will let my pictures do the talking..

i must say i realli like some of the photos tat i took tat day..i was like"wah..i took this photo ah"..it was realli a great feel to capture flowers up close..unfortunately tat day was the last day of the festival..so all the flowers were dying..some of the stalks were bent and broken off..imagine wad the flowers wld have looked liked on the first day...most of the photos tat day were flowers...very few had picstures of either huisi, adelene or myself...haha..in fact onli like 5 outta 160+ photos got human beings inside..the rest all plants..haha..

2/8

it was history day as much of the time was spent learning bout the history of singapore..and it was realli interesting..din know i liked singapore history so much..first went to the nation museum..realli like the history of singapore portion where we were given a companion liked device which gave explanations along the way..after tat went to clarke quay where i learnt a little history about the place..how was it like in the past...the impt ppl in tat area which made trade possible in the past all those kinda stuff..the the comparison frm then and now..u'd be surprised theres not much changed..the facade of the place is still the same..as we walked round clarke quay had the change to sample some beer and learn how beer is made..tats when i learn a valuable lesson..NVR DRINK ON AN EMPTY STOMACH..it just speeds up the getting drunk process..especially for me as i will develop reactions to alcohol on the next day..although i din realli drink a lot..the effects the next day where quite bad...had a little hang over in the morning somemore..lucky could still go to church...

3/8

went to church despite the slight hangover..after tat had lunch and went to changi airport T3 to get my new phone..haha..realli shd go there and buy stuff..nobody one..dun have to queue like TM liddat..got the samsung F480..realli cannot wait for tml to transfer all my contacts and also play with the phone..rite now its still charging...

so yup..this weekend has been realli fruitful..learnt alot and enjoyed alot also..better enjoy first before sch starts..haiz..realli gonna dread the long travel time to NTU..sch officially starts on 4th..but i onli goin to sch on the 6th cause i ORD onli on the 5th..have to be in camp to settle clearance and collect certs and stuff..basically admin work lar..k..gonna bed alreadi..super tired..haven realli had much rest since this morning..hope u all enjoyed the pics..

Beatnik at the National Museum..

2008-07-27T11:21:00.006+08:00

went out with Huisi and Adelene AGAIN yesterdae..its like almost every weekend we meet for movies..dinners..shopping and whatsoever..liddat also good lar..keep my weekends occupied...haha..think the next time we meeting again shd be the movie THE MUMMY which is out on the 31st..anyway..went to the Beatnik event at the National Museum last nite..the museum was "painted" with many nice colors and patterns...there were live performances also..since the theme was "hip hop" there were breakdancing performances..beat-boxing as well as DJs scratching away on their turn tables..onli thing is..we had to see the performances from afar...and reason is..CAUSE OF THE SLR CAMERA I BROUGHT...stupid reason rite..yup..tat was wad i tot when we..rather i was denied access into the performance area..(the performance area was barricaded up)..i was like "HUH" i have nvr ever heard such a reason before...i mean sure got alot of ppl bring this kinda SLR camera to take nice photos one wad...nvr mind..dun allow nvr mind..at least provide some lockers to lock up e camera or put it with the police to safe keep so we can enjoy the performances..BUT NON OF THIS WAS DONE...(as i type this my blood pressure is like rising to my head..as seen in those cartoons..) shdn't things like this be done..if i can think about providing lockers and stuff definately they can come up with it too...somemore its not like a one night thing...its been on for a few weeks..and with each week having a diff theme..not blaming the police wadsoever..they are doin their job of not allowing us in..its just the rules..but i am totally disappointed with the organizers.. feel more could have been done...there were so many ppl outside the barricade just watching the performances afar..and worst thing is..i actualli saw one person with an SLR camera snapping away inside the barricade...i was like WAD THE HELL...

reason i am like so pissed is cause this is the dunno how many donkey times i had bad experiences with like the gov and stuff..although this event is not realli by the gov..its gotta do with the public and stuff like this shd be thought of..brainstormed and decisions like this shd be made..so much for improving the service sector..

kk..will leave u all with pics frm yesterdae..before my head explodes..

almost there..

2008-07-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

spent this week joining some of the training sessions...also doin some of the clearance i needa do before i ORD like dental and medical..also brought bout half of my staff back frm camp...din know i had so much stuff...also spent most of the e remaining credits i have at the emart..
anyway..just received an email which lifted up my spirits alittle..(not tat i am feeling down or anything)..well..its gotta do with my studies..bout a mth ago..receive a mail asking me to choose between 2 streams in my course..mainly design stream or mechanical stream..the name itself is quite explanatory lar..anyway..i chose design stream mainly cause i am more of a drawing person than a "do it" person..especially during FYP in poly..i came out with the designs for our grp so nartually it would be the choice tat i like..
somemore it came at a time where i was feeling a little sian about starting sch..cause i came to know about SIM having aeronautical engineering as one of its new courses..i took a look at the syllabus and it was wad i had planned to study in the first place...naturally i was planning to change course but i had to get approval first..which obviously failed..so i was back at square one again..having no motivation at all to study..well.at least now i have something to look forward to..
anyway...gonna do some online stuff for my uni..last few things i needa do before sch offically starts for me...

finger update..

2008-07-22T17:38:00.002+08:00

just to update on my finger situation...when to the docs in the morning for my checkup...and good news..i dun need to go for op..the crack is still there...but there are signs tat new bone is filling up the gap..or so says the doctor..so up..finger still a little stiff and swollen but shd be fine in a few weeks time..have to go back in 3 weeks time for another xray and see if its completely healed..realli wanna thank those who have prayed for me...so no mc this time..haha..have to go back camp and do some clearing up..haven realli shifted anything back..its about time i do so too..
today was quite a busy day compared to yesterday where i practically slacked throughout.. when to the docs in the morning..stretched all the way to the afternoon...then went to simei community center to get my singpass done( its for my uni studies..the CPF parents paying scheme or something liddat)..then went all the way back near church to cut my hair..gotta go back camp so dun wanna get caught with long hair..somemore gonna ORD liao..better not get into trouble...
so yup...later gonna go back camp...goin back earli again...wanna catch the 9pm channel 8 show...haha..maybe gonna visit a fren also in camp who is frm church..so yup..will update again soon...

P.S. Thanks for ur prayer phyllis aka philosophyllis aka [s]UnSeT/[s]UnRiSe

updates on my finger..

2008-07-15T21:49:00.004+08:00

should not be home at this moment in time but since i am..decided to update my blog for a while..well..the fact tat i am at home and not in camp at this point of time kinda gives it away..yes i am on mc again...another week of mc..second time tat the hospital has given me an mc of one week..went for my checkup today...took another x-ray before seeing the doctor..

so as u can see from the pictures above..those are my self drawn x-rays..not too bad a drawing i must say...took me sometime to find out how many bones were there in my finger...haha..ok..as u can see..two weeks ago..there was a crack on my finger..right in the center bone..was put on a splint to prevent it from moving..last week went to see the doc again for my medical appt and was told tat i could remove the splint and let it recover..then given another appt which was today..went in the morning..took x-ray and as u can see..the top portion of the crack shifted just slight to the right there..showing tat theres some movement lar.. it looks and sounds painful but to be honest i dun feel much pain..just tat my finger is a bit stiff..ok..the main point is if it shifts further right when i return next week..i may have to undergo surgery to like straighten it lar..so right now i have been given a better plastic splint..better looking than the last one..and definitely stronger lar..
dun plan to fully utilize the mc tat i have right now..no pt also..cause now doing clearance for ORD in camp..not much physical activity also..further more if i go back after one week..i may not time to finish my clearance so dun realli wanna take tat chance..also i haven been talking to my platoon this time round cause i have been away on duties and mc cause of my finger..so goin back earli to settle all the stuff i need to settle ain't so bad lar..yup..so decided to go back tml night..wanna realli get some rest after my duty yesterday...realli tiring...k then...please pray for me..hope my fracture does not shift anymore lar..

The Zoo...!!!

2008-07-10T08:45:00.016+08:00

back for another update...uploaded some pics from the zoo outing on the 5th..realli wanted to upload more but i have over 200 plus pics worth some 700mb..how to upload all sia..i even have trouble uploading to facebook and photobucket..think i just gonna burn into a cd and give those who want them..much faster and easier tat day..u will notice i am not in most of the pics..tats cause i was the photographer for tat day..was testing out my bro's SLR camera..realli solid..the pics were taken with an ordinary lens..guess wad a special kind will do..but realli ex lar if u wanna buy the lens...
anyway..went for my medical appointment earlier this week about my fractured finger...doc said i could take off the splint and slowly let it recover..gave me one week mc for tat..but the mc doesn't realli matter much..i had to go back camp yesterday to help out enlistment cause not enough ppl..today have to go back camp later cause my recruits coming in..stay till sat then go home during the weekend..monday on duty have to be in camp..and tues is my medical appt again..so not much of a rest for me...
well.can realli use this time to do my NTU stuff..clearance for my ORD...may onli be 2 things but sure alot of stuff to do for each of them...
also my health has not been so good recently..had a bad cough yesterday..cough till my head hurt..then was doin duty on the fastcraft..had to ensure the safety of the parents and enlistees on the fastcraft...travelled back and forth for countless times and tats where i got kinda sea sick..the boat rocking and everything made me feel like puking... felt better after puking took a couple of panadol and took some rest..felt a little better after tat...well...some ppl say when u haven fall sick in a long time and u suddenly fall sick..it will be quite jialat and will last for quite some time..got a feeling this will be with me for quite some time also..plus my finger..not a good period of time for me at all...
well..hope u enjoy the pics as much as i have..just drop me a message if u want the pics and i will burn a cd for u..

its confirmed..i fractured my finger..

2008-07-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

kk..my title of the blog entry kinda explains itself..yes yes..i fractured my finger..not tat painful frm wad i had expected..i din know it was fractured in the first place..tot i was just another sprain..
anyway.. went to see the doc today...reason being to skip a particular event in camp..haha..as well as to check my finger out lar... cause its been a few days alreadi and the swelling did not go away..
well now i know why though..got refered to cgh...the time spent there was superlong as usual..at the end of the day they put a splint on my finger to prevent the bone frm bending and getting deformed...but i took it out once i reached home..cause it just so ugly..my finger was like a sausage rolled up in gauze..then if my mum saw it she would go nagging..and tats the last thing i wanna go through...have to go back to the docs again on e 8th to see a bone specialist..just to check whether there is any deformity lar..nothing much i guess if everything heals ok..
the thing is i had this same feeling on my toe a few weeks ago..same thing while playing soccer..but the pain not as jialat lar..just some bruising for a few days and it went away...dun think anything serious lar..imagine a splint on my toe..i just cannot imagine..
anyway i just woke up frm a super nice nap..which lasted frm 6 in the evening all the way till 12..dun think i can fall aslp anything soon...well..think i will go exploring on the net..bound to be something interesting...

the importance of the index finger..

2008-06-28T16:03:00.002+08:00

looking at the title of this blog and u will know..yes..its about my index finger..kinda like sprained it during soccer this morning..was realli looking forward to this morning soccer as it was the onli progam tat i had for the day..was suppose to go haji lane to shop in the afternoon then go play pool in the evening..but all were cancelled when one of the gang member could not make it...leaving my whole afternoon free to slack...anyway..bout my index finger...had a bad fall during soccer..and i dunno how but my entire body was ok...no scratches nothing..onli my finger got sprained..(now how am i gonna do the wuxi finger hold..haha)..think my whole bodyweight was on my finger or something..wld put a picture of it if i had a camera phone..it wld look like something outta the movie SAW or something..its realli swollen with a open wound on it..cannot bend it and can hardly type on the keyboard..now i know how impt the index finger is..
anyway..as for the afternoon..have some activities tat i just planned for myelf..gonna watch japanese drama serials..yes..i have this drama serial tat i alreadi watch like 3 times...but gonna watch it again..then theres this drama serial which priscilla tan introed to me..think gonna check it out..then after tat was hoping to take a little nap and then wake up for dinner..as for after dinner..well..later then plan lar..was thinking of goin eat prata..been sometime since i ate it..eat for supper wld be nice..anyone up for it..haha..
kk..shall go and watch show while eating some snacks...

tagged by liting..

2008-06-25T00:06:00.003+08:00

i'm tagged by liting(my godsis). so.......

Rules of the Taggy Quiz:
A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Here are my answers:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
A: think first reaction wld be very upset...then wld be to find the person to find out the reason..if its possible salvage the relationship..if its not treat it as a lesson so as not to commit the same thing in ur next relationship..

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
A: be with the person u love..to share ur happiness and sadness with each other..to care for one another in sickness or in health..

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
A: nothing specific in mind..maybe anyone who needs a listening ear..

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
A: no..not at all..realli know wad lies ahead of me and wad life has installed for me..

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
A: ideal lover...hmm...well..think just someone who loves u back with the same passion and commitment as you...the rest will follow suit..

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: definitely being loved by someone..

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A: as long as it takes...if u realli love someone..u will understand..

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
A: look out for her..if her bf is not available for her and she needs a listening ear just be there for her.. but ultimately just wish tat she remains happy always..tats the most important thing..

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
A: nothing realli..the most just unhappy with myself..tat wld be making myself unhappy..

#10. What do you want most in life?
A: rite now wld be to find my other half..

#11. Is being tagged fun?
A: haha..not realli..wasn't realli keen on doin this quiz cause i tot it wld be a waste of time..but didn't want to disappoint my godsis.. but some of these questions realli got me thinking.. so yeah..its a good quiz i guess..

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
A: i dunno..if i am married wld be working my ass off to earn money get whatever my wife wants..(if its within my budget)..if i am not married..wld be working my ass off again..to get promoted soon so tat when i eventually do get married i wld have enough money to do the same thing as mentioned above..

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
A: well..if i realli have to name a person wld be elva..(as in not the taiwanese singer)..she is well..i wld say more than a sister to me..(er..dun get the wrong idea.its just something i realli feel..hard to put in words) but others are impt as well lar..frens like grace..ade..huisi..andrew and church peeps..they are bits and pieces of my life..if u take them away its like taking bits and pieces of my life away..then it will not be complete..

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A: well well..haha..very nice person of course..very encouraging and understanding..someone who u can ask advice or share ur problems with..a very faithful and loyal person..both to her family wise and bf wise..realli a role model for everyone to follow..especially gals..see how loyal she is to her bf..hope can find a gal like her lar..opps...haha no lar..just realli envy the bf..

#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
A: married but poor i guess..but tat wld contradict wad i said about working my ass off just now..well..thinking companionship overwrites everything else..

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
A: well well..i wld prefer a dog..a big dog cause its like a giant furball lar..haha..most prob either a golden retriever or a german shepherd.. golden retriever cause of its personality needless to say.. german shepherd..well...i think my personality resembles one of a german shepherd so yeah...

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
A: wow..tough question..well..in general.i prefer not to do things tat would not impact ppl's lives...i wanna have a lasting impression on others...

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?
A: two words..guardian angel..

#19. What do you define as a bad day?
A: no such thing..its ur perspective..the way u think tat marks a particular day as a bad day..

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
A: wow another tough question...if its onli one..i think wld be love bah.. cause ur love is also ur friend..ur best friend in fact..so if u choose love..its equals to choosing friendship..(get wad i mean??)

kk...tats the end of the quiz..did this quiz yar lar..reason is alreadi stated in the quiz..by rite suppose to tag ppl to do this exact same quiz..but dun think i gonna do so..dun wanna force ppl into doin it ya know..but its a good quiz..worth giving it a shot..i know i have enjoyed it so yeah..no regrets...

bad slping habits...

2008-06-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

just woke up frm another unscheduled slp..been having these kinda slps lately..just lie on the bed and ZzzzZzzZzz..cannot help it man..with all the football and work..how not to ZzzzZzzz..anyway not here to educate others on bad slping habits..partly my fault also..cause later i wanna watch the germany and turkey match also..haha
its getting closer and closer to my freedom date..(ORD date)..its definately something tat i have been waiting for a long time..saw some of my recruits come back and becoming officers..really glad to see tat..others becoming sergeants..but something i feel is just missing..maybe its because i felt i haven touched any lives at all..dame sad if its realli true..then all my time i spent training to be a commander and time as a commander will be to waste..frens always tell me..their ORD date its just another day to them..nothing special..maybe the most its like just another birthday for them..
went to haji lane recently with grace and gang..its realli a cool place..with cool items and clothes and hot sales attendants..i must say one of them was realli cute..anyway..if u're looking for clothes with quite a high budget..its a place worth visiting..wanna go there again...maybe this weekend..cause haven realli been to all the places yet..cause we went in the evening and all were like closed..saw this nice looking pair of specs..took a picture with it..can see my facebook..realli nerdy and retro look..but i am blind as a bat lar..realli wld be good if can make lenses with it..wanna get it and try..
sian...still long till the match starts..think will try to listen to some david cook songs till then..

u'll always be a part of me...

glad i went to church..

2008-05-25T17:28:00.002+08:00

i was glad i went to church todae..after a sleepless nite..tons of tots running through my head..i finally got some answers..why do i feel hurt..why does my heart ache by the true i found out yesterdae..cause i feel accountable..i feel it is my responsibility to bring to back to the light..

i have told u countless times..to stop wad u were doin and return back..i believe u have a choice..everyone has a choice..but why do u wanna sink deeper and deeper tat i do not understand..everyone is shouting for u to come back...to return to e light..but u just brush it off and go back to the darkness..

wad i have found out todae..is tat i can can tell u time and time again wad u have done wrong..but whether u wanna listen is ur own business..and in future if u ever regret..u only have urself to blame and no one else...by then it wld be too late to turn back..by then u wld have sacrificed everything..even urself...

so i say to u...stop plz stop..before it is too late...

what have u become..

2008-05-25T01:08:00.003+08:00

perhaps it is fate...perhaps it was meant to be...i know i shd not have..but i did it anyway...cause i was curious...of who u were..who u really were..
i had a picture of u in my mind..a picture of who u are..to me...u are like an angel..ur smile..the way u are when u ar happy...to me u are perfect...but now i know...cause i have seen...i cannot believe wad i saw...the angel i knew..it could not be...i checked and double checked but it was real..the image of who u ar..shattered immediately in my heart..wad has happened to the angel i knew...where is the love for urself.. its like all this long..whom i know is like a stranger to me now..how can this be..
tots of all kinda ponder into my head..tears almost streaming down my eyes whenever i recall wad i saw..my heart aching...
i ask the Lord to forgive wad i have done...heal my aching heart..and bring back the angel i once knew..

sunny island..

2008-05-16T08:11:00.002+08:00

blogging frm the sunny island of tekong..just some updates...this week has been an ok week for me..with some lazy days as well as happening days...and in a blink of an eye..the week is almost over..well..maybe over for some of my frens but definitely not for me..cause tml i got guard duty...funny why i always kena on those book out days..sianz..well..guess i already used to it..
some things coming out for me..other than gonna ORD in another 2.5 mths time..church camp is coming up..manage to get leave on the 6th to attend the camp..have always skipped camp cause of my work commitments...found out tat i gonna be a grp leader..first time tat i gonna take on a leadership position church wise...kinda nervous about it..cause even though i have taken recruits in the army...the ppl i gonna take in church are not recruits who are blur like sotong...so have to treat them differently..how differently..well..just have to take them to have a feel of it..but i am kinda confident tat i will do a good job so good luck to me ya..
although i haven been confined or anything liddat..realli miss the freedom of home..of just sitting around and watching dvds...laying on my bed and enjoying the luxury of surfing the net wirelessly..all the small small items lar..think the army has taught me tat..so even if i haven learnt nuts during my time of service..at least i can get this small lesson outta it...
well..think i better go first..my lovely breakfast is waiting for me on the table..haha..tc guys..

another perfect performance

2008-05-08T14:41:00.000+08:00

anxiety is killing me...

2008-05-08T14:25:00.002+08:00

just reach home from a medical checkup in ntu..was much faster than i thought it wld be..thought i wld be there for like 3 hrs but it was over in less than an hr..but it took me hrs just to find the place..luckily i asked around for directions yesterdae if not today sure cannot find..but all the walking was worth it..cause i saw a gal which was kinda cute..looked like a student in ntu just helping out with the medical checkup..hmm...anyway...
tml is the day of reckoning for me...the day where others will mark on their calender..the day where i will be...the Duty Orderly Sergeant...haha...may not sound much to u..but to me its a scary thing...first..i have nvr done it before...dun realli noe the roles and responsibility...have to check whether everyone has eaten their meals which can be quite a headache..have to conduct guard mounting in the evening which the procedures and commands i dun realli know..and have to wake up at 4 plus the next morning just to prepare for the morning crowd for breakfast..yeah..tats wad i do and do not know in the a nutshell...tonite confirm cannot slp one..for sure...
well...tats all i have for now..please pray tat everything will go smoothly tml for me...thanks

invisible man..

2008-05-01T13:08:00.000+08:00

what i am...

holiday..

2008-05-01T12:35:00.003+08:00

finally a holiday...not tat i realli needa a break..but its good to have one...wad i realli need is a holiday..but dun think i will have the chance to do so till the end of the year at least..
well..my current batch of recruits i must say are the most challenging bunch i have ever taken so far..just because they come frm all walks of life..ppl who ar big..small...tall..thin...gangsters..loners..u name it i got it... alreadi got some who are breaking down or about to break down...and the gangsters..dun even get me started on them..not tat they are giving me probs..but they are giving my other colleagues probs..think its gotta do with how i tok to them..all this while..i hardly shouted at recruits..nvr realli punish them also...cause i dun see a need to..if u get tok to them...get them to understand..and then they execute it..wun it be better this way..saves trouble on both parties..my colleagues dun see it this way..they prefer the hard approach..which tend not to go too well with the gangster grp...
its finally May...3 more mths till i ORD..this mth alone is gonna be a challenge..gonna do duties i haven done before..quite anxious about tat..moreover got my recruits which i have to get in place..many many things to do..well..at least this way time flies faster...
realli wanted to watch iron man either yesterday or today buy boy were they packed...its like in the morning when i checked for the evening shows..the cinemas were alreadi 3/4 full...well..maybe another time..since its a popular movie should last in the cinema for quite some time...
well..gtg..gonna meet up with adelene and gang for maybe another movie and pool...then its back to camp and work..

P.S. its always hard to look back and wish tat u could reverse time..to reverse wadever tat has been done..truth is life would unlikely or nvr be like the past again...wad we can do is just pray and hope for better things to come..and thru faith we believe it will come..

long long time ago...

2008-04-19T09:50:00.003+08:00

just came home from duty...did it quite reluctantly though..(not as if i did the rest of my duties willingly)..u see..now i got no recruits under me..so my colleagues and myself quite free lar..just do some work everyday then by afternoon can go back le..thing is..some of the days declared off for us...and if i am not wrong...ALL OF THE DAYS I WAS SCHEDULED TO BE ON DUTY...u know now frustrating it is...to see the rest go home and enjoy while u are at work...plus yesterday it already the 4TH TIME...argh...even my colleagues feel sad for me..keep telling me.."u si bei suay" however my duty yesterdae was not too bad..at the end of the day i had this thinking tat i did my duty well...something which i dun think to myself very often...
anyway...recruits coming in next week alreadi..so fast 6 weeks of break gone...then have to go confined again...but as elva said.."tahan lar...gonna ord liao"..ya..come to think of it also quite fast..this month gonna end le..
also i came across this video online..think my uncle sent me this through facebook..apparently when i showed my frens they said they alreadi seen it..but i think its worth a second viewing...so here it goes..laugh ur socks off...

haha...i liked the way the mama reacted..super cute..the baby also..wad a sneeze for a baby tat small...
now i remember posting back a few months ago tat i was following American Idol particularly this guy called David Archuleta..now this guy is a real talent..he starting singing when he was a little kid..this week on American Idol was all about singing songs by Mariah Carey..was realli looking forward to it...with the voice of David and the songs by Mariah..it was pure brilliance..
now to see just how brilliant this guy is...

i dun think this week was his best preformance but he has been rather consistant so who cares right..anyway u can see his pass performances as well as performances when he was young..sometimes i think if onli i had half his voice..man..haha...kk think i can continue dreaming on..
anyway..think i will go take a little nap first..did not realli sleep much as i was on duty yesterdae..nitey night..

the past hurts...

2008-03-25T15:20:00.019+08:00

thinking bout the past realli hurts..seeing and reading those messages to him just makes it worst..how i wish my feelings wld just disappear..i dun blame u for e decisions u have made for u have ur own reasons..i cannot force u to change ur decision for it will be something against ur will and i know u wun be happy at all...i know i have done many wrongdoings in the pass..i look back at wad i've done and i'm not proud of them at all..if i have any regrets in life..those wld be the only regrets tat i have..if i could turn back time..i wld erase those wrongdoings..as well as memories of u...

its been quite a while..

2008-03-21T20:56:00.002+08:00

its been quite a while since i updated..

well..the pass one month has been quite a roller coaster ride for me..i would say more than half my weekends were burned just this month..frm going outfield again cause recruits miss lessons..till having regimental guard duty..all fall on weekends..on sunday sunday somemore..but this week managed to get long weekend..so gonna make full use of it and relax..just surfing the net..listening to music..watching dvds..checking my facebook account and of course updating my blog..

but all of this i have to do using my bros computer..yes..my notebook is down..it was working fine last night..and this morning when i woke up it just died..not realli totally died lar..just tat it cannot find my operationg system..think something wrong with the hardisk..wanted to go down apple center at wheelock to get it checked out but today public holiday so nvr open..so goin down tml instead..still waiting for mark to reply me to confirm goin down tml..

i have blogging pretty much bout my "other half" recently.. bout when God is gonna show me the correct one..no doubt he will and in the near future..but sometimes i think..wad if God shows me the correct one and i dun like wad i see..come to think of it..i am actually very picky at this kinda stuff..as in of course ppl have flaws and i am sure that i can accept them..its just tat u gotta realli like the other person in the first place...and tats the realli tricky issue here..haiz...just realli "fan" bout this issue...

anyway why did i suddenly blog bout tat..kk..i have been following american idol lately..and my clear fav wld be david archuleta..tat guy is onli 17 but has a realli powerful voice..think its due to the fact tat he starting singing at a very young age..if u were to search for his performances in youtube..u wld find his performances when he was younger as well..he's a real talent..then it kinda hit me..wad if i had tat kinda voice..use it to sing during worship on sundays..wad a blast it wld be..i am not saying i not happy with my voice rite now..i am contented with it...just tat i wanna do more..

toking bout singing..gotta rehearsal tml evening at ccr..gonna sing again after so long..realli excited about it..ppl frm ccr tell me tat i am gifted with a talent...i guess i have been given tat talent..tats why i wanna use it whenever i can if there's an opportunity..and its realli my honour to be able to use my voice to produce beautiful music.

kk..i shall stop here....will update again soon..i hope..haha

earli in the morning...

2008-02-26T06:10:00.003+08:00

yet another earli morning...this whole week will be on course so it like 8-5 lar..then can come home everyday..but something just does not feel rite...everyday finish lesson go home..just feel a sense of emptiness inside..play games but tat doesn't change a single bit of how i feel...
sometimes just feel so frustrated on wad God has planned for me...asking me to wait and hold..just have to be patient i guess and tat moment will come...where i will find her...
this thought has been in my mind for a very long time..especially the last few days its been constantly on my mind..just felt like voicing it out this very earli morning...

earli on a sunday morning...

2008-02-10T06:01:00.000+08:00

look at the time...its 6am and i am awake..not tat i want to..but i have to..gotta book in later cause moving outfield later tonight..realli sucks i must say the schedule..out of the 9 weeks...i counted my weekends burn about 6 times...dame jialat..
new year realli flew by..felt as if it nvr happened at all...there was something missing just dunno wad it is...feel realli empty..as if the last few days had no significance...
realli dread goin back to work..but wad to do..think just gonna drag myself to work later..

stuff i bought for new year..

2008-02-09T12:19:00.000+08:00

(think this pair carried in Japan..but u know the levis store in heeran..they have almost everything..oh no..now everyone know my waist size..)

(just a nice simple watch..realli like the big sqaureish face)

(been eyeing this pair of shoes since the last time i saw it during christmas)

(just a another simple white shirt frm freshbox)

(bought it frm one of the new shops in TM..they sell realli simple yet urban clothes..my kinda clothing)

yup...these are the stuff that i bought for new year..realli the entire set frm head to toe...wanted to go for a bag...but my shopping was realli last min so din have much time..plus when i wanted to get it was like new year eve and everyone is packing up to head home for reunion dinner alreadi..nvr mind..later goin out to shop again..maybe i can find one..haha..all pics are taken using my webcam...cannot realli find a camera round the house so just have to make do with the webcam lar..haha

back again...

2008-02-09T11:43:00.001+08:00

quite some time haven blog alreadi..rather lazy to do so these few days..just a few updates..
remember tat time i asked u guys to pray for me for tat super busy week with me alone doin all the stuff..well..it was tiring..but managed to go through it..remember slping onli average of 4 hrs per night..tats wad happens if u do my job back to back..but after tat week when my colleague came back..haha..throw everything to him liao..well...onli for like 2 days lar..cause it was the chinese new year week...so not too bad..nvr realli bully him much...
then came chinese new year..was like holiday mood this whole week..but this new year was rather boring...not because not getting enough red packet..but its the same new year. visit the same houses..meeting the same ppl..just doesn't change much..somemore onli the first 2 days got visiting..the 3rd day onwards no more alreadi..somemore must go back to work soon..somemore go back work straight away go outfield..how to get adjusted u tell me..well...better enjoy more before go back to work...
anyway..my bro left for australia this morning..goin there for attachment..so good lor..remember last time i poly in house attachment..stay in the lab do my robot..but in the end still got a good grad for it lar...hahahe gonna be gone for 2 mths..which means i can have the room to myself..haha..but onli on weekends...well..better than nothing..
recently just got a new tv at home..not i buy one of course...its a philips LCD tv..HD ready wor...haha..when i heard getting new tv and its HD ready one thing came into my mind.. and tats PS3...if u wanna buy PS3 u gotta have the TV to go with it..or else it just wun look nice..now tat i got the tv...just have to get the ps3..but it will have to wait..think the price now still too ex..wait for it to drop first...haha..
well...for todae..gonna meet zing later to do some shopping..nothing tat i realli wanna by actualli.just see as i walk...now left counting my hong bao money..haha..kk...chaos...will upload pics of some of the new year clothes tat i bought...

2nd blog of the year..

2008-01-27T19:35:00.000+08:00

noe its almost the end of jan of 08 and this is onli my second blog..been busy lately..new recruits just came in..confined with them as normal..come back home also wanna relax and not blog..feel its time to noe wads happenin in my life lar..
family just went out for dinner..suppose to go with them..if it was earlier i would have..but its alreadi 7 plus..just feel tat i need some space to myself..to relax..listen to some music..watch some videos online..pack my things slowly before i head back to camp for another tiring week..dun have to go through the week and i alreadi know its gonna be tiring..2 duties this week..plus live range which will end in the wee hours of the morning...plus everyday waking up super earli to do my secondary appointment..how not to be tired..
well...enough of army..went to church today..sang during the youth service...trying to sing whenever i get the chance to book out..those are the onli chance i have left..ppl have been asking me whether i wanna sing for the main service at 9..been thinking bout it for quite sometime also..whether i can stay committed...whether my schedule allows it..whether i could get used to singing with total strangers..so many factors to think about..
talked with karen yesterday during rehearsal also..toked bout uni life..how its gonna be like..wad to expect..bout me finding a gf..think tat as long as i am in the army..realli dun have the time to find and maintain a relationship..so when come to uni..just maybe lar..if i can find the rite one tat is..
gonna continue packing up and getting ready to go back camp..pray for me as i go through this tough week..

Happy New Year...

2008-01-01T02:34:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl...wishing all a Happy New Year...just wanna say to all who had a bad 2007..forget all the things tat happened in the past..wads done is done..no pt pondering over it..look ahead of all the good things tat are about to come..
for those who had a good 2007...well..nothing to console huh..so ya..hope u have another good year ahead..haha..

photos finalli in...

2007-12-29T21:30:00.000+08:00

finally got the skating photos from may teng...waited quite a long time for it...here are some of the happy moments...

skating din turn out too bad lar..was better than i tot..was the first time ice skating and yes i did fall down..but not realli my fault wad...first time was trying to maintain balance and the second time was trying to siam a head on collision..so not realli my fault..haha..and i fell gracefully..as in struck a pose upon landing so as to seem tat i was doin one of those figure skating poses..onli tat it wasn't like those u seen on tv..haha...for those who haven tried it..it fun..dun worry tat u are a noob and scared of falling..cause there's a pretty high chance tat u are not the onli noob there..
finally the year is coming to an end..so many things have happened this year..but generally its been a good year..alot of though lessons learnt but end of the day i am the one tat benefit lar..in one years time..when i blog again bout my thinking bout 2008...i ORD lor..haha..by then will be in uni..another big challenge then..but now..army still left bout 7 months..very fast..leave also left a few days..in a few days time have to return to camp le..so much for leave..time always flies when u are in the civilian world..
pass few days have been doin several stuff..catching up with some old frens..tidying up my room..completing my plastic model which has been sitting on my shelf collecting dust for the pass one year...(bought it before army but no time to do...not to mention in the army itself..)finally gonna complete it le..will have pics up by then..next model i gonna do will be a car frm the initial d anime..either the all famous panda coloured AE86..or the yellow mazda RX7..(think gonna be another deju vu again if i buy..buy le put on the shelf and collect dust till one year later when i ord then got time to do.haha)..besides tat..started playing maplestory again..haha..outta boredom lar..
next few days gonna be pretty pack for me also..tml got church family service which i will be singing..when for the rehearsal todae..din dare to sing the parts cause dun wanna like mei da mei xiao ya noe..but it the end i was given the green light and i let it all out...haha..so happen tat most of the songs the parts i could reach lar..so not too bad huh..wanna see me perform it will be in CCR on the 30th at 9am..of course go not to see me perform lar..but go with a heart to worship and praise God for wadever he has done for u this pass year...watching me perform is secondary..haha..then rest of the day think spend with either church frens or outside frens lar..see how..then monday...new year eve..so fast..my mum's birthday somemore..lucky my bro bought present alreadi..just have to pay money...haha..18 bucks but i not complaining lar..mum lei..(hope she's not reading this)..hmmm...after tat would be back to camp liao i think..use finish liao..time to work..haha..but realli looking forward to next year lar..gonna ORD very very soon..and have a feeling that next year will be another challenging and fruitful year..
yups..oh...for those i haven wish...Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year...

Most Wanted Movies:Alien VS Predator 2
Alvin & The Chipmunks
Most Wanted Soundtrack:Alvin & The Chipmunks(esp funkytown..so cute..haha)

hady won asian idol..can u believe it..?

2007-12-17T12:14:00.002+08:00

"Empty"

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty
We're empty

realli like this song by the click five..although dun realli like the band..but like the lyrics and melody of this song...starts of slowly and quietly and changes to the rock kind..looking for the mp3 for this song also..send to me if u have if ya...
anywae..here to just give a little comment of the asian idol..
i remember watching asian idol on tv on sat in camp..was realli looking forward to it..so keen tat i dropped wadever i was doin and went to watch it..especially watching our own singapore idol singing against the rest of asia..then i remember hearing the first contestant frm malaysia..and my jaw drop..its like one of those pieces tat u wld onli hear frm american idol..tat voice was just so powerful..the most powerful of all in the competition..the phillippines was good as well..amongst them..hady had realli no fight in terms of voice..plus his song selection of beautiful day by U2 for his second song realli was not good...it was just not his kinda song..
serious during the whole performance show..when malaysia and phillippines performed i wld be glued to the tv watching in amazement at their performance whereas when hady was performing...i wld be doin my work..just listening to his singing in the backgound..no offence to hady..he can sing..but put with those power houses he was realli insignificant...
so came the result show on tv on sunday.. i was on leave on monday and tues so could watch it lar..realli alot of commercial and performances before the results..too much for my liking anyway..then came the results..HADY was announced as the asian idol..my heart sank as i saw hady sink on his knees on stage as well...hady could not believe it..neither could i...amongst all the powerhouses he had won..i din realli know the deciding factors tat crowned the asian idol..heard it was by sms voting..still if u wld think carefully..amongst all the nations in the competition..singapore was the smallest..population as well as landmass wise...where the hell did all the votes come frm..unless hady really outshined the rest tat made other nations vote for him..which was not realli the case..
saw today's papers..and there he was..hady's photo on the front page..with his hands clutching his face in disbelieve..i still at this moment cannot believe it..but the truth remains the truth..
ok..enough on me being critical about hady..more about myself now...on leave today and tml..was suppose to wake up super earli todae to send one of my frens off into the army..but guess wad..i overslept..think tat fren super angry with me lar..die liao..gonna try apologising later tonight again..gonna gym later with lesmong and gang then thinking of goin orchard to get some stuff before heading back to tamp for a movie with the same gang again...hmm..good plan for today i guess..relax in the day and "party" at night..haha..for tml..well..think liao then say lar..

sick..leave...sick...leave...

2007-12-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

today on leave..kinda like need this break to just wind down and relax..just finished duty this morning..kinda like a rough night..could not slp much and woke up with a headache..plus my superiors breathing down everyone's neck just not helping much..have to go back camp tonight though...to clear my weekend duty for this month..hope nothing much tml lar..since its a weekend..but with many newly enlisted recruits recently..i doubt so..kinda taking duties one at a time..taking it one month be one month..
by now ur shd know tat i am pretty stressed up at work..due to my secondary appointment..cause of tat..it was said tat i would get lesser duties compared to the rest..unless i got punishment(extras) then tats a diff case..however..i found out i wld be doin 5 duties for the whole of next month..tats like more than normal..way more than normal..even if i got punishment onli suppose to have 3 duties...so much for previleges and lesser duties..all a pack of lies..
i have been working my ass off this pass few weeks..doin my best in everything..i dun feel appreciated..my workload just increases all the time...superiors(just one of them) expects immediate results upon tasking of work..not taking into consideration that we have other task at hand..he just cares about his own ass and to do his task first..whether or not u have other task at hand...then he goes on saying tat we cannot multitask..how to multitask when u demand immediate action and results..
its getting harder and harder to work anymore..sooner or later everyone is just gonna shut down...when that day comes..i will be there laughing away..cause this is what he has created and done..
for shooting his shit work at others: 100
for creating good working relations: -100000000000000

down with a sickness..

2007-12-12T11:41:00.001+08:00

back with a very sick entry..not tat the contents are sick lar..just tat the person typing this entry is very the sick..haven been sick in a very long time..was about time tat i fell sick lar..can kinda relax and recover frm my sickness..got flu..block nose..cough..block ears..(yes ears can be blocked also..think its cause of my block nose) feeling realli slpy at the moment..dunno whether its the medicine or izzit just me..think gonna have a rest later..
but cannot realli rest for long though..later still have to go back camp..on duty tml..
tml got enlistment for some new recruits..on duty tml..so most likely have to wait at the cookhouse and look at the parents eat one last meal with their sons before they leave tekong..realli have to station there whole day till the last wave of parents leave..good also lar liddat...got things to see..(if u know wad i mean..haha)
suppose to go some sch anniversay today...but realli have to rest and recover if not tml duty dunno how i gonna survive..
still got a couple of duties more to go before i go for my long break..bout 1 plus week..realli looking forward to it..
my second batch of recruits graduated yesterdae...realli glad tat it finalli happened after taken the second batch straight without rest..next batch will come in jan next year so still not too bad..can start to count down till ORD date..haha..as well as handing over my secondary appointment which is realli killing me at the moment...think tats the reason why i got sick in the first place...
well..got some pics frm that graduation day..wait till my officer send the pics to me then i put them up lar..
oh ya..looking for ppl to go christmas shopping with during one of my leave days..currently all my frens are busy either working or not free when i have free days..so sms me ya..

almost at the end..

2007-12-02T13:12:00.000+08:00

uploaded some photos as promised last time...had alot of pics actualli..but onli some with my face in it..dunno why also..

(trying to climb a tree)

(trying to climb a tree again)

(looking down frm top of the tree)

(trying to settle some business back at camp)

(sherminator and psyduck..guess whois who)

(big happy family)

(happy family no.2)

(bbq..woohoo...)

(now u know why i getting fatter..how not to get fat..!!!)

(slacking away..)

(china army..)

(kena punch by the sherminator..)

(platoon 2 eagles...whoohaaa...)

(crazy platoon 2..)

(my recruits)

(platoon 2..home of the eagles..EAGLES!!!!...)

(platoon 2 at the eagles nest..)

(happy time...!!!)

(happy time no.2...)

hope u enjoyed the photos..gonna be in future since we have a practice to take photos for memories..time has realli passed and its almost till the date where the recruits are gonna gradutate...this coming week is the last week left of training before they graduate in the 11th..
still remember the first day when they came in...all so blur...not say they not blur now lar...just not as blur..after they grad..it will be well deserved rest for me..i wld say about half a month break before e next batch..onli have to return to work for duties..coming to the end of the second batch alreadi..another blink of an eye then ORD lor..haha..realli dunno how i will feel when tat day comes..imagine dun need to book in on sunday night..dun have to wake up at 5 every morning..haha
originally had taken leave to go overseas with family for the last week of dec..but up till now still haven decided where to go and its alreadi dec alreadi..dun think goin anywhere lar..maybe just stay at home and complete my plastic model which has been waiting for me since last year...gonna go out more often also since its the festive season and i have more time off then..realli wanna sit down by the river side..have a drink and just relax...looking at the moon and gazing over the river..looking at the reflection of the moon on the river surface..realli haven done tat in a while..
went shopping with huisi and ade yesterdae..was kinda like frustrated half the day cause i knew wad i wanna buy...wanna buy a pair of shoes..a shirt and maybe a wallet..but i was low in budget lar..so was like prioratising on wad to buy first..walk almost the whole of orchard and could not find a single piece i like..i was looking for something i realli liked if not i wld buy one..went the topman which was one of the last stops..knew i wld buy something frm there..cause most of my shirts are frm there..but sad to say..i liked non of them..tried on one but found it funny and did not fit me..also tired a pair of jeans..its off white..not a colour tat i have at the moment..gave it a try and found it to be realli good...something diff frm my other jeans tat i have...however dunno wad to wear to suit those pair of jeans..cause the tops i have are either too dark or too light..does not go realli well with something like white jeans..so still thinking of tat...
have been buying more jeans lately..now got a few levis(512,501,505,522)..got one frm samuel and kevin...got 3 frm topman..(2 slim fit and one bootcut)..planning to buy one more frm levis though..think the model is 606..quite new one..so many things wanna buy..so little money...tsktsk...
realli wanna relax with my time off..cause in camp there's no time for tat at all...think i shall stop here..till next time...
oh ya...those reading this please pray for my Godsis liting..her mum is suffering frm stage 3 cancer..she has been exhausted juggling studies and taking care of her mum at the same time..she has falling sick herself also..please pray for her health as well as her mum's..

all in one post..

2007-11-11T15:06:00.000+08:00

hey...back again after quite some time...had to be confined one weekend cause of field camp..after come back onli bothered to have fun and always forget to blog..so now just before i am about to book in better blog..if not ppl will bug me for an entry..yup..booking in at 6 plus later..cause i am incharge of bringing my recruits back to camp todae..liddat good also lar..can rest..watch tv...play my psp then go slp..tml have to wake up earli again...sianz..
well..as i said..just finish field camp last week...this is my second batch of recruits so meaning second field camp..weather was quite harsh lar..when it rained it realli poured..like last time liddat..outta 6 days 5 days rain..still remember my first batch first day soaking wet alreadi..dame demoralizing...after field camp had a long week end..suppose to go back work on fri after deepavali..but cause we had one day off cause of the weekend we were confined frm field camp..brought over to fri..so had a super long weekend..come to think of it not realli very long lei..gonna book in later liao..haiz..
now for the fun part...deepavali...nothing much lar..stayed at home rest..playing my usual online game(which i have decided to quit)..then watched starship troopers 2 on tv at night..regretted watching tat show...so boring.. as compared to the first part..
then fri..the most fun day of my "long" weekend..went to sentosa...haha..realli changed alot..last time i went there was no monorail system...no tram to bring u to the beach...now got everything..plus all the renovations and stuff...could not recognize the place..considering the last time i went there was during my poly time..played beach vball..skills realli rusty alreadi..basics i think still there lar..but things like jump serve which i could do in the past no longer can do now liao...but still can play lar..haha..also wanted to even out my tann..cause in tekong everytime wear the singlet go do pt..then have to tann lines...not nice..but now..I AM RED LIKE A CRAB..and it hurts alot..guess not realli used to the sun lar..gonna be sometime before i start to shed my skin..haha..later my recruits sure ask me..."Sergeant..how come so red..."haha..
hmm..sat had worship rehearsal in the morning...then at night went bugis to play pool with huisi and ade..realli nice place with great music and the condition of the table was great also...good place to play overall..only thing was a little ex lar..think 11 plus per hour..but worth if frens realli know how to play and there are many players..
then sunday...nothing much lar..go to church..then get ready to book in le lor....
got some photos in my frens camera frm sentosa...will upload once he sends to me..
oh ya..ade..huisi and myself was thinking of having a pre-christmas celebration..er..more of a get together lar..thinking of having steamboat..and a gift exchange session..most likely just before the christmas week lar..will do up the invitations soon and send out asap..
k lar..think shall end here..noe its realli a long entry with all the boring day to day stuff..well..once i get the photos will be more interesting lar..

saddening..

2007-10-22T09:24:00.000+08:00

still at home wating for it to be round close to 11 before i leave home for work..dun have to book in yesterdae since my recruits have a visit at sdc this morning and i dun have to bring them..but time flies so fast and the xtra time i have seems as though it wasnt there at all..
since i had so much time yesterdae..my dad decided to bring my bro and me to visit my grandma who is in a nursing home somewhere in braddell...remember seeing her just a few months ago in hospital..now she is in a home suffering from demansia..(dunno how to spell)..on the way there..was thinking whether she wld remember me..she dot on me alot..giving me the best outta all the little she had..my dad told me she had forgotten alot of things..things can happen todae and she wld forget them tml..but she wld remember things tat happen long ago..so being the oldest amongst her grandsons..i was hoping she wld remember me..
upon reaching there..i gave the building a stare..it was kinda run down..the rooms were cramp and there was practically no wind at all..the mood there was realli very saddening..enough to immediately change one's good mood..then i saw my grandma..she was slping..i took a good look at her and could tell immediately she had lost weight...her face was smaller than usual..then she woke up and saw me and my bro..she immediately smiled at us..her smile was like light shining through a pitch dark room..i still remember the smile on her face up till now..then she turned to look at me..at tat moment through the look frm her eyes..i knew she had a small rememberence of who i was...throughout the whole time we were there..she did not say a word...but she looked at me alot...seems she wanna say something to me but just could not..remembered in the past where she would have a lot of words for me..telling me to study hard..that my parents sacrifice alot for me..although i did not realli know how to reply here in cantonese..i would understand and reply accordingly..holding up my tears each time she gave me words of wisdom..now she just lay silent on her bed..
we stayed for just a little while,,not wanting to disturb her rest...upon leaving i look at the building once again..not knowing when i will see her again..on the way home i thought to myself...will i be like her in the next 50 years...where will i be then..will i be able to remember all the friendship i have forged past and persent...sometimes on the way to work..i wld just think to myself...whether i wld rest the place peacefully and in one piece...or wld i be knocked over by a car while crossing the road...i just cannot help but think of all these things..after wad happened to andrew of wad happened to my fren's frens..whether one day it will realli happen to me..if it realli happens wad wld ppl's reaction be..
i remember in the past i asked andrew one question..if i were to die..wld ppl remember me..wld i be missed...he scolded me in a joking manner..told me i wld be missed dearly and wld be remembered..now something has happened to him..i still remember his character and personality..the countless times he has come up to me and talked to me...cracking jokes and making me laugh..tats the thing i miss most about him..just miss the way he is..

get well soon andrew..we're all waiting for tat day when u r yourself again..

back finally..

2007-10-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

finally back from a long week of work..actualli not realli long lar...this week passed rather quickly..maybe because of the live firing we had for 2 days..the live firing was tiring though..leaving company line earli and returing late..not enough slp for those 2 days...but overall was ok lar..
was like planning wad to do for this weekend on the way back..this weekend not too bad lar..got dinner with grace and gang tml night..then church on sunday..the other times are for me to play my online game and chill out..but other programs are welcomed as well lar..(just feel free to sms me..haha)
next week...dun have to book in on sunday...haha..cause my recruits have a visit to sdc..so book in on monday afternoon instead..shiok...can wake up late tat morning alreadi..
well.think i gonna rest for the night..tired alreadi..

boring..

2007-10-13T14:40:00.001+08:00

gloomy day..has been raining on and off..liddat also quite good lar..cool whether..nicer to slp..haha..but not gonna waste my time slping on my weekend..can alwaes slp in camp..oops...leaked my secret out..haha..not realli slp lar..for me quite busy cause i got a very impt secondary appointment as u all know..so have to keep on doin work...even if slp also a while onli..i wun even call it slp lar..just rest..
rite now playing an online game which my pc introed to me...a game called nine dragons..basically go round the map killing monsters and lvling up to learn more kung fu and fight more dangerous monster..(is this boring u)..haha..actualli i also dunno why i doin this entry..outta boredom i guess..todae realli nothing much to do..was hoping to watch the soccer matches tonite though..but i no scv..then the program which i used to watch matches online also gone liao..so just have to go out and watch..went to cosy bay after andrews birthday to watch..quite a good place lar..beside the kallang river..big screen and good atmosphere also..a good place to chill..(hint hint: anyone wanna go tonight..haha)
think the onli program now is tml..grace birthday..gotta go there earli help her set up stuff..hope i get paid for helping..(grace are u reading this..haha) yup..but wun be at her birthday party for long lar..still gotta book in tml night..then its gonna be another start to another long week..

about myself..

2007-10-08T17:06:00.001+08:00

came across this at elva's blog and decided to give it a go..quite accurate lar i must say..if u wanna try it out youself..click on e link at the end of the post..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Get to know yourself bet

part time frens..

2007-10-07T13:58:00.000+08:00

had this feeling for a long time..the feeling tat i dun belong to any group of frens..feeling left out whenever they plan activities..whenever they go out.. i would be the last on their list..the last to noe..or even nvr at all..why is this so..feeling so left out..

something funy..

2007-09-29T13:47:00.000+08:00

always wanted to post this but haven had the chance to..nows the chance...haha..enjoy..real funny..

finally...

2007-09-29T12:57:00.000+08:00

long time no blog le..cause last time dunno why they change the blogger system to a new one..then the html template also change..so could not change my skin..even if can also those very sucky kind..but now can le..thanks to my meimei liting..haha..thank u so much..a big part why i nvr blog so long is cause of the skin...just cannot stand it..now i gonna blog like mad...muahahah...
hmm..as u all noe frm my msn nick lately..been feeling kinda stressed up lately..now i shall blog bout it...(so tat ppl can stop asking me why i so stress)
well it goes like this..its all gotta do with my ns work...my company just changed out csm bout 3 mths ago..back then he was very on the ball..quite understandable lar..since he's new so must work a little ya noe..my colleagus and i all tot he will tone down a little as time goes by..by boy were we wrong..he started to get worst.
now he starts threatening all of us with xtras(extra duty on weekends so we cannot book out) one small thing and get xtra..it put us in a situation where we find it very hard to work..cause we worry too much getting punished we simply cannot work efficiently. .wads worst is tat everyone has a secondary appointment..and for me...is in charge of all the weapons and the paperwork tat goes with it(believe me..its ALOT of paperwork). my csm is very particular about the weapons..cannot be rusty must be in tip top condition..this alone is very hard to maintain...plus all the paperwork..one line not drawn straight and u prepare to get punished...and now he checks the paperwork on a daily basis putting me with alot of stress..
on top of tat..i have my regimental duties to do as well..when i am doin my regimental duty..he loads me with more work..weapon paperwork..work he gives to other ppl to do i also must ensure..i feel its not within my job scope to do all this stuff..u give other ppl to do..ask him to ensure and report back to u...not other ppl ensure..think tats not right..its just adding to other ppl's work load..and dun tell me things to do with weapons when i doin regimental duty..i have lots to do with the duty alone and he continues to load me with work..(ok..now i sound like i am toking to him face to face)..
bottom line is..he seems to not understand the situation he has put us in..the stress..the pressure..the inability for us to work well...our officer commanding has noticed this and noes of the situation..think he has also spoken to the csm..however nothing has been changed so far..its just getting worst..
well..now u all understand wad i am goin through at work..he has alreadi warned me..another mistake and tats it..xtras coming my way..i am alreadi at my limit..sometimes i feel as if my stress level is gonna burst through my head..but i think tats life..just have to live with it...
yup..sorrie if my entry is like a braggin session..but tats wads happening to me now..just hope someone does something before something bad happens..

2 post in one...

2007-05-17T11:01:00.000+08:00

hey ppl..if u not alreadi noe i came back frm my taiwan training bout 2 weeks ago...training there was tough cause of the terrain..but the R&R was super fun..so fun tat i forgot bout my training period..now onli remember the shopping period..haha..all in all..i spent about 800 bucks on clothes and food..(overspend by 400)..now kinda like using my money sparingly till my next pay which is like so long away..i shopped mainly at Xi Men Ding area..which is like the most happing place lar..think more happening than orchard road..the whole street is filled with school students and teenagers...and the gals there are all cute..is like very 5 secs that i WAH..so they are so cute.. the food there is realli good as well..they got many road side stalls..i remember one time i at mince meat rice..wan ton soup and some dried noodles all in one go..and all just cost S$5..quite worth the money lar..but i got diarrhoea and fever when i came back to singapore..haha.but recovered quite quickly lar..so not too bad...
anyway...i just graduated yesterday..now 3SGT alreadi..been working towards this for like 7 mths..realli felt good when i saw the rank on my shoulder..another good thing is i kena posted to BMTC..haha go train recruits..its always wad i wanted lar..hope can go back there see my previous instructors..kk lar..i will try to upload some pics frm taiwan as well as my graduation parade..as soon as i figure out how to..cause the new blogspot like cannot do so...see wad i can do lar..
i have to report back to work on monday..so now quite free lar..if got anything can always ask me out lar..haha..

shag ah...

2007-04-21T00:37:00.000+08:00

hey..just came back frm playing pool with huisi and ade..well..not realli just lar..came back bout 11 liddat..then bought some stuff while i was out lar..like tons of sweets for outfield and the plane ride..some medication..and a big bag for all my stuff to bring to taiwan..wanted to bring my adidas one..(used since sec sch for volleyball)..but it was like realli run down and like anytime gonna break those kind..will try to upload a photo of the bag i bought when i return home lar...along with all the things i buy frm taiwan..haha..(tats like a tradition to take a picture of all the things bought overseas..haha)
oh ya..for those who dunno..i am leaving for taiwan later..(its alreadi sat..haha..0043)have to be airport at 5..which means must wake up at 3...now almost 1..so if i slp..later wake up sure very tired one..so i planning not to slp..haha..later got plenty of time to slp on the plane and during the bus ride in taiwan to my camp..
everytime i go overseas will very excited one..(maybe cause holidae bah..)but this time kinda diff..cause will be goin there for training..and its gonna be super tough..so tough tat i dunno whether i will be able to take it..onli looking forward to the last4 days of R&R...haha..
think its realli gonna be tough later..saying goodbye to my family members for 3 weeks..goin to a foreign land to train and suffer..realli need u guys to pray for me..firstly for a safe journey..second to be brave when saying goodbye to my parents(hope i dun cry)..and thirdly to endure through the training..
but one thing is for sure..i will be super high during the R&R..very emo when i return back to Singapore..and very proud of myself when the SGT rank is place on my shoulders on my POP day..oh btw..my POP(passing out parade) is on the 16th of May..at PLC..if u can make it please tell me..ur all invited..haha..(well..not exactly all lar..)but it wld be good if ur can make it lar..
kk..i think i better go take a nap..my eyes are like closing alreadi..haha..see ya guys in 3 weeks time lar..tc ah..wish me luck..

booking in soon..sianz..

2007-04-16T14:25:00.000+08:00

time realli flies..i have to book in again liao..well..still got like 3 hrs plus before i leave the house..but believe me..3 hrs will be like 3 mins.. if onli time in army pass as fast as my free time..how good wld tat be..
just came back frm some errands..went to sew my rank on my uniform..felt so good seeing tat sgt rank on my uniform..7 mths of hard work went into tat rank...well..still got taiwan to go..at least i did not give up and made it this far..
ya noe..sometimes i sit and wander..i look around me and i see ppl attached..my frens around me also liddat...i wander wad if one day i was attached as well..how wld she look like..wad her character wld be like..how diff was life gonna be as a couple..then i wld start to think whether i realli wanted to get attached..all the time need to sustain a relationship..the times when there wld be quarreling..but ultimately the benefits outweigh the cons..like the company of each other..having each other to share thoughts and concerns..
i alwaes believe tat day wld come for me..but i noe its not anytime soon..for now i am occupied with lots of stuff..army..church..where got time to squeeze in another gf..but tat time will come..i believe God will provide for me a rite partner at the right time..so i'm not realli like rushing to look for one lar..haha
anyway..gotta go pack my stuff again..all the stuff i bought for the taiwan trip..haha..tml also got interview at ntu..gotta think of possible questions they will ask..hope dun kena snook..haha..kk lar..blog when i get back on thurs or fri..

hey ppl..

2007-04-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

hey ppl...back again after so long..i noe i noe..everytime i say wanna blog in the end also nvr blog..its realli hard to maintain a blog ya noe..need to sacrifice the time to log in and then share with everyone wads goin on in my life..
i noe..my blogskin is kinda gay..but no choise..now using the new blogspot..somehow they dun use the html coding system..they use dunno wad xml one..so like very hard to find blogskins lar..this is the best i can find so far lar..if u guys got any site to intro plz drop me a msg..
todae is sunday and i dun have to bookn..hurray..haha..cause tml we give off lar..so go back at nite..but still got stuff to do lar tml..so will be quite busy then tml nite go back le..its gonna be a short week lar..onli tues..wed and thurs.. then fri return home..and sat flying off to taiwan for training le..gonna be there for like 3 weeks...after tat pass out as 3SGT alreadi...very fast course finishing le..but its one hell of a course..the most shiong i have been through so far..but God has bee faithful and good lar..standing by me and renewing my strength to keep on goin each day..
the remaining one week before i fly off will pass very fast...tat i noe..then the 3 weeks will be a rough one..so plz pray for me especially for good health..cause without health cannot do anything lar..
oh..remembered i said i got rejected for the aeronautical engineering course i applied for..well i reapplied and i got shortlisted for an interview this coming tues..which means i got a 50% chance of getting wad i wan..haha.. hope everything goes well lar..
yawnz..realli a little tired alreadi..but the nite is still young..dun wanna waste my precious time slping..haha..maybe i go take a shower first and freshen up..will be back guys..